Stop the Rape of the World

This is a psychological Dr. / patient question for me.  I do not know when innocence was lost - when lost as an infant - an infant, toddler does not know innocence from a bee sting - in that context I neva was an innocent.

As for loss of innocence re:  home life, community, the rich, the poor, neglected, rape of the earth --  came about in my isolation - would have books, a candle and get inside a tiny room & hide & read, and then process the knowledge, compare one's views to the others, find my OWN belief.  In secret Hide the books in the ceiling, conceal them take back to library.  Get more, as many as i could carry. was caught once by parent - horrid books!  gurl don't have no brain and thinks she can fuckin read? LAUGHTER, DRINKS ALL ROUND,  books thrown in the fire.  my precious books, burned my hands pulling them out, they were scorched badly & had no way to pay for the damage.  Returning the scorched books --- naked with burned books, laughter @ my nakedness, the bruises, scars, ------- maybe, that was truly loss of innocence.  lost trust in the librarian - my idol until then.  just dirt poor, what you been doin' with these books ? you t hink it is funny ? neva gave me a chance to answer.  neva cared.
holding my tummy, fearing i would throw up, i left, feeling every eye upon my naked body, going over every mark.
u r poor
u r abused
u r neva innocent
u r born
u r raped

 

u learn

u survive

 

u isolate

u and a book

 

book does not judge where you came from

what was done to you

book is safety